Fashion Dense: Self-Care & Rodeo Clowns

A while ago, I blogged my plan to start a series called "Fashion Dense" (I'm still really proud of the cleverness of the phrase, by the way. ;P), which you can read here. It's pretty much about the fact that I've been a tomboy my whole life and, now that I'm approaching 30 I figured I should start to figure out how to dress like a lady.

In other news, holy shit I'm almost 30....

Now, I'm always going to be a tomboy; I love comfy jeans and big sweaters and throwing my hair up into a ponytail. There is nothing wrong with this. But, as it is with so many other things in my life, I need balance. I have to know how to take care of myself/look presentable instead of always falling back on what it comfortable.

And that's what it has been for me - comfortable. Growing up, I figured if I didn't try too hard then I wouldn't look silly when I failed miserably. Plus, I felt like I was surrounded by these girls who spent hours and hours putting on make-up and changing clothes and etc., and that just wasn't me. I felt like my tomboy-ness set me apart.

However, just like those girls who feel like they have to have make-up need to realize they're just as lovely without, I need to learn that I deserve to not always look like a rodeo clown.

This, I've slowly realized, is another form of self-care. I've been doing really well to balance things I enjoy doing with things I need to do. Forcing myself to just sit down and read a book or watch some footy on TV. So why can't this balance and self-care extend to how I present myself? It won't change who I am as a person........ haha, I write that and I internally scream "Right?! It won't change who I am, right?!", so I guess that is what is hardest for me. I've defined myself by this laid-back "I don't care how I look" persona for so long that I guess I'm worried I'm going to turn into a person I've always tried not to be.

But that's not the case;
I have to keep in mind that this is another way I can take care of myself. And that I deserve to take care of myself. And I'm excited to reach out and get help from you all because I know, in some way or another, you understand what I'm saying.

I am multifaceted. I always have been. I can be both my comfortable, laid-back, tomboy self as well as a woman in big-girl-boots who can take on the world.

Yes. Yes, this I can be.